Several people have asked me, and I’m sure others wonder, what I as a healthy, physically strong, chastised male, gain from the chastity experience. I can assure you that for me the benefits are many, and well worth the challenges.
All day long at work I have to make critical and difficult decisions. I often need to confront others regarding their actions and job performance. I have no complaints regarding this role, as I chose it myself. I am also good at my job and am compensated fairly. However, it can at times be stressful when difficult decisions need to be made.
Also, in most of my relationships with family members I am required to make decisions. As the oldest son with a number of siblings, and as a divorced father of several daughters, I am relied upon to a great extent by family. Again, I have no complaints. I usually enjoy my role as the decision maker and arbiter of disputes.
However, as one who has to make tough decisions regularly, and be responsible for the outcomes, it is nice to not have to worry about other aspects of life. Since I have given total control of what is now Her penis to Mistress Alegria, the sexual aspects of my life are so much simpler.
No longer do I have to worry about pleasing women with my little dick. It has become a non-issue. As what used to be my little dick now belongs to Mistress Alegria, any such decisions or worries are entirely hers now. In fact, when I see a beautiful woman these days it never even occurs to me that I would like to fuck her. That is a non-issue completely, although I do often fantasize about being able to provide oral service. However, when those thoughts enter my mind I quickly remember that is not allowed without permission from Mistress Alegria. I am no longer a sexual creature except as directed by Mistress Alegria. That is very freeing.
Also, prior to giving complete control of my sex to Mistress Alegria I was a compulsive masturbator, jerking off at least once and often several times a day to porn. This occupied much of my time and energy. That is no longer a problem. It has been months since I masturbated, and on that occasion it was at Mistress Alegria’s direction for her amusement. Since I am no longer consumed with masturbation I have much more time for other, more productive tasks, such as serving Mistress Alegria and maintaining this blog.
Another benefit of enforced chastity is the physiological aspects. It is truly fascinating to observe and experience. After about two or three days I start getting very horny. With any free time my mind begins focusing on the buildup within me. As I reach about a week I am in a near constant state of horniness. By about 10-12 days I find myself leaking semen from my engorged balls. Of course regular tease and denial sessions only exacerbate all of this. By about 15 days I feel constantly ready to burst, feeling as if I could cum in my cage from the least little stimulation. Riding the train to work in the morning can be such sweet torture as her little weenie bounces around in its cage. I find myself forcing myself to focus on some reading material or work to break the mood. All of this is like being involved in a marathon foreplay session. And for me it is very enjoyable.
Another physiologic aspect that fascinates me is the mental changes that occur. The longer I am kept chastised the more submissive I become, and the more desperate I become to serve my Mistress. I can clearly see it, so I am sure Mistress Alegria sees it as well. As Mistress Alegria mentioned in her last post I was willing to walk to her house in the midst of a blizzard to serve her. I was not necessarily expecting to be allowed to cum, as I have given up complete control of that aspect of life, thus I do not have any expectations. I just wanted to serve and be in the presence of my Mistress, perhaps garnering a compliment and a smile from her. I love it when she tells me that I’ve provided good service. And she is genuine in her praise, as well as in reprimanding me when my service is lacking. Being an authoritarian figure in many aspects of my life, I very much enjoy my transformation into a true and complete submissive that enforced chastity engenders.
So, in short, enforced chastity is a freeing and transformative experience for me. My sexual inadequacies related to my tiny penis are no longer my concern. Mistress Alegria has freed me of that problem. And Mistress Alegria has provided me relief from the stress associated with being an authoritarian figure. While she values my opinion and requires that I be open and honest with her regarding my feelings and needs, it is nice to know that ultimately she is in control and will manage our relationship and activities. For me this works and I am very happy.